I’ve been AWOL and crappy for the past few months but now I’m back. I have discovered that I need this blog as an escape, it helps me to work through my thoughts and gives me so much support in recovery and reaching my goals. 

I feel I need to be honest here. The trigger to my relapse of sorts was my grandad’s heart attack in Feb. That night I remember so clearly, it was to most emotion I’ve felt since my granny died. I couldn’t handle it then. I still can’t now. So I ate. I ate until I couldn’t eat anymore, until I felt sick. And then I made myself throw up. And so it all began again. 

Since then I have been awful, bingeing then throwing up. Then repeat. For months. I would say i’ve had it under control again for about 3 weeks now. I want to reach my goals so badly and I want 2013 to be the year that I succeed in doing this. 

I’ve also come to the conclusion that I very much dislike who I’ve become. I hate how much of a horrible, selfish, bitchy person I am. I am awful to be around. I need to change this as well. So all in all there isn’t much I like about myself at the moment. But I guess coming to terms with this and working towards being a healthier, better person will be good for me. 

iworkinpr:

Your third year in 

life-is-fucked-up:

http://die—foramermaid.tumblr.com

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lose-the-lard:

ami-healthyyet:

For all those who think eating healthy is expensive: all those staple fruit and vegetables cost the same as that tub of Ben and Jerry’s

holy shit, this

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riseafterfalling:

become.

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almost-perfectt:

I’m over the moon for Danni. I’m so happy for Danni. And you know what? Here’s the thing… You try and you fail. You try and you fail. But you know why you get up everyday and you try again? For this moment. This moment right here. This is what you fight for. And it doesn’t happen often, but when it does happen, it’s magic. And it’s worth it.

SHE’S SO FUCKING FABULOUS! I really hope she wins the whole thing. They all deserve it but I just love her so much!

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misskikilatrice:

Dear Single Men-You Motherfuckers are HILARIOUS:

If I wasn’t good enough for you wearing a size 24…what makes you think YOU’RE good enough for me at a size 18?

Exactly.

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fitsparrow:

I WANT HER BOD

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i have to be funny because being hot is not an option

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funeralformyfat:

Those are my two girls!! i love them!!!!

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iamchimp:

stfusexists:

redefiningbodyimage:

I have no idea who this woman is, but I love her.

Correction: This fine dame is called Sarah Millican

“The rest of this better be a f***ing equation”. Amazing.

(Starting everyone off with something lighthearted on this rainy Monday - hope you had a great weekend!)

Sarah Millican’s stand up is like the most perfect female stand up, I’ve never agreed with anyone more :’)

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